sh@riNg is c@riNg~~

wut is my expectation in my life?

hmmm…

dun have maybe..

wut do i really want?

hurmm…

dunno again….

wut do u feel if ur bestfren told ur biggest secret to others??
aku feel upset giler n dat feelings keep haunting..
never expect dat he will do dat..
maybe aku ni xde makne dh bg die…
not his fren nemore…
even aku n die dh xb’tegur sapa,aku xprnh nk say anything bad towards him,tp dia without hesitation boleh told his gurl,yg baru die knl bout my secret…
dat gurl told me juz now,die n dat boy got no secret,shared every story of them together…
but,dat’s my secret,not their’s..cant accept diz kind of humiliation..
sumone dat i count on broke his promises..n make me feel bad…again…

hmm…been ages didnt write here…
lot of things hppned in my life thru all these days…
tired thinking of L.O.V.E…
a long journey between me n him seems doesnt make any senses to him…
till when i must be in diz crack situation…
oh my God…help me…
i love him sooo damn much…
y could diz hppnd to me…
my fault maybe…
sigh…dunno wut to say nemore!!!
leave it or take it,dats da choices now…

haa…arini aku temankan mak aku p klinik…nk check her pregnancy’s status…hmmm…makin xsbr nk ader baby…last pon,4thn lepas…ecceceh…mcm aku lak nk ader baby,hehe….but,y not rite???im big enough to think bout dat…hehe…hmm..aku rindu sumone soooo damn much…dunno how to describe how much i miss him…miss him like heaven…

huff…i felt lega giler today…baru jer finished my final exam…n insyaAllah,aku grad sem ni…wish me best of luck keh…n of kos nk further study…if ade rezeki Allah nk bagi…for now,aku tgh duk pk nk watpe time cuti ni…hmmmm….keje???

huhu….aku plan nk tggu dulu ar…if xdpt offer further study memane,then i decide nk keje…malu ar duk umah,mkn tido,mkn tido..hehe…siblings ramai oo..huhu…ni dlm proses nk dpt one more…arap2 baby boy…cukuplah 10 org my siblings…insyaAllah…mum,i pray 4 ur health n safety when deliver soon…amin..

hmm…sad??

am i?? blurr………huff..

dunno wat’s going on myself rite now,but i juz feel awkward when thinkin’ dat i’ve got nothing left wif me nemore…

to protect is too hard,but to lose is juz like dat,easy…

hmm…..my heart’s crying…… ;-(

arini aku keje syif pagi…so,kul 2 td aku abes keje…nk spend time membebel jap…ni ngah lepax ngan eben kat cc…
emmm…last nite,aku sedey giler2….dunno y,but my tears falls easily…thinkin’ of sum1 dat across thru my heart sjk akhir2 ni…aper lagi yang aku tggu actlly huh?????
aku sdiri xleh nk jawab…
but,i hope die akan tunggu aku n of kos i hope aku xtlambat…
“jangan sia2kan ape yang kita rasa…………”
n 4 sum1 yang msih lagi stick in my heart…y ssh sgt ur memories nk fade away huh??ur memories mmg degil…degil like urself!!!

oleh krane today i got free time….aku nk wrote sumthin’ here…skrg ni aku keje kat kdai kek….cuti sem lah katekan…huhu….tp,mmg penat giler n ader r slh sorg worker der mmg aku xsuke…mnyampah giler…tau r die tu assistant kat c2…but at least,respect r others kan??huhu…result exam lmbt lagi kuar,but aku nervous r….xtaulah caner….ape yg aku arapkan,no REPEAT paper….mntk jauh sgt2….aku nk abiskan my study tahun ni jgk….xlarat dh nk b’gelumang utk diploma…huhu….pasal mslh hati n prasaan lak…skrg ni ati aku dh tenang n aku decide wanna be fren wif saper2 je buat maser ni even wif my ex-honey…biar r time shows me evrything…for me now,single is simple…double is………..???

eloo everybody…lamer dah x wrote sumthin’ here…i juz finished my final exam by 9th may…now,being home is da most happy thing for me…best gak leh jumper membe2 lamer…tp,xramai yg balik…ader yg wat part time kat tmpat blaja n whateva…aku pon baru pas syrvey keje…ingat nk keje kat kdai kek but xdecide lagi….tp,mcm manepin…aku ttp nk keje…aku ni jenis xleh duk lamer kat umah…pns punggung…huhu…xsbr nk jumper membe2.misz u all damn much…muaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhxxx!!!!!!!

2morrow iz my first paper….
bel 300….wsh me all da best dude…….
my fren juz now told me about him, n i’m quite surprise to noe dat he juz missing me like i do missing him all of my days….ape yang aku arapkan dier sntiasa selamat walau d mane dia brade…n aku nk dia tau yg lifes nust go on n no matter wat happen,i’m still loving him till my last breath…